8/31/2008

Today we have a Schroeder family softball outing at the park. While my balance and use of my glove hand are not up to standard for any organized ball, they are adequate for family softball at the park. Its my one time of year to actually play ball. It is not quite the same however, because I won't be wearing cleats, sliding pants, or a matching uniform. The competitiveness is not as present as playing a team sport, since everyone just wants to have fun, but it is as close as I get to sports these days. Not being able play sports really wears on me. I yearn for the adrenaline rush of competing and winning. I did shoot hoops outside my house yesterday, which I do many places, and watch a plethora of sports live and on television, but it's not the same feeling I get from actually doing it. I do get quite frustrated since I am not able to do the simple things easily, but I have also learned to accept my situation as being me.